Honestly don’t think I could handle being around people today. But class was cancelled today due to a major power outage. So ill use today to catch up on next weeks homework. Maybe if I have nothing to do I won’t be stressed.
Sorry, I may have relapsed. I’m sorry.
I really have no one I can talk to. I’m so fucking alone. I just want to be accepted and loved, and the only person who genuinely loved me was so abusive to me I’d be an idiot to take him back. But I’d rather be treated like shit by someone who really loves me than be treated like shit by people who are just using me. Short term love and then abandonment hurt worse than anything I went through with him, or at least it seems that way right now, because at least when I was hurting I could still go to him for comfort. Now I have no one. I hate being this alone…
I have three hydros left and I’m miserable. I’m gonna take all of them. Good night world.